Dreams

It's hard to remember now.  I was gonna say some other stuff, too.  Let me just go out and say it.  I thought Kate Bush was really nice.  She's from England and her mom is Irish.  I called someone the n word and it seems the whole world knows.  Wow, even when I type on WordPad, I mean Notepad, sometimes the words blink and it makes me jump.  Anyway, I like to live surreally, but I keep hearing these other worldy sounds of Kate Bush being antsy that she wants to knock me out of my senses and make me uncomfortable, even with my Noisemaker.

So, my dreams?  I think I can remember one.  Well, it wasn't really a big deal.  I think it was disjointed and uncomfortable...  I'm not sure if I'd remember it.  I don't think there was anything about caring about me.  I think it was like a camp.

I was trying to feel like those kids in 2005 being carried, but I felt knocked out by Kate Bush and had to masturbate about that pornographic Alice, which I saw some pictures of, which shames me because I don't really masturbate to porn.  I masturbated to myself, yesterday.  :|

Anyway, these clicks and squeaks are constant and of the annoying type.  It's like being a hostage.  No one helps me.  It's like when I'm in school and no one can get me out of it but me.

I'm also mad I thought that Ellen DeGeneres in a way mainly caused this ... my dad was having popcorn and I felt like my tubes were gonna pop all night and woke up a few time and went to the bathroom.  I was upset and settled in and made myself feel better, in the end.  I don't know why I was so mad, but I was.  I mean, he even popped it at a time where I supposedly should have not gotten, well, at all mad.  I think you're a perv if you think I should be mistreated by my father.  Who thinks that?  You mustn't be very cool because that isn't cool.  It's mean, and it won't get you anywhere, and adults will twist your life, like they've always done, and they will all do it so you can't stop them.  You know people like you want approval from them.  So, I got mad at people walking yesterday, at cars, thinking they'd never have a comfortable, fulfilled life for mocking me.  Well, 2 days ago.