Christina Barrett

Being European

I guess any non-European influence could give any European extra problems.

Food Here

My mom doesn't really have the supplies.

Europeans and Their Fascination With Europe

Why even bother talking to them about their fascination with being European? I have no idea "what" it's like to have a more European father. I don't think I care, frankly, just the prejudicea about my Native Ameican and probably Jewish blood.

Americans

So, maybe, I have to respect Europeans, but what about other Americans? They're always competing to see who can be the most American. }:{ So, what happened to the idea of being good just like in general?

Eating Healthier

I'm eating healthier now. :9

}:{ Gr.

My dad just came back in again.

There seems to be the idea that I'm not all I used to be cracked up to be.

What Happened This Time

I just felt funny and wanted to pretend I was like a soldier fighting and was upset that I was American but accepted it but not that it was necessarily the best thing.

I was looking for old Halloween costumes like that. I still have to tell my dad what I want to be. He's gonna buy the costume. I also have to decide to spend my money a certain way by a certain time.

^99^ My dad just asked me to go to the mall, and I said no I want to wait until it's time for us to go to the grocery store. I don't feel so well. I feel pretty good as a whole for some reason, though. It's like there's something wrong with the surface of me. I felt affected by someone ... for some reason I channeled the thought with Helena Bonham Carter ... and I felt my face wasn't as plastered in a certain way that was bad, but I didn't keep the good way.

Hm, I just thought of book when my dad came in. He left me a note, and I saw it. I didn't want to go out, though... I just bought 3 personality books. What's his point? I don't want to solidly feel indents in my brain, neither! Why should I suffer his bloood?

I just realized something.

Don't get mad because there will always be a reason later, but I still deny certain things, feelings. I do feel very irritated and am keeping to myself a lot, maybe because I'm an adult, now.

I think I can calm down. I guess I just got excited. However, when this happens, when I get better, people want to do me in some other way just to test me out.

Also, I'm going to the grocery store sometime soon. They didn't even have sushi last time I was there, and that's my present diet. D: It's been a week! I didn't go! I've been having stuff that's not godo for me and didn't have my vitamins. I can last because I don't make it out much and keep to myself. I can't imagine people who lead lifestyles that are unrestful.

My Worth

I realized I was worth something and that people are mistaken to think I am worse than them and to mingle that idea with maybe that means I'm not good enough for someone else.

Not Ready

What do you think of the generations who aren't ready to have kids? It seems I can be an adult but not have kids.

Do I plan to have kids? Well, I guess as my parent generation gets older. The kids? Well, unm, they'll probably have kids, too.

Ellen should have been able to have kids.

Something Funny

So, I was walking a week or so ago, and there was this guym not too weighted down but still substantial... and he said or seemed to like allude to that he was a lean 2-footed dinosaur running in a heard because of the hype over the Ellen ride at Epcot.

I just watched her on Jay Leno, and it was so funny when they toasted at the end that like the goal right now is to be like it was when Titanic came out and that Ellen was the prime suspect against it, since she's from the New Orleans area and not somewhere like L.A., east coast Florida, or maybe NYC.

Also, I know I moved then and Britney Spears became popular. I was 12. The clothes were all wrong! Nothing at all to wear! I got short and fat and was tall and somewhat thin before.

Also, what's up with the idea that like for instance Helena Bonham Carter is more like Tim Burton than me because they have kids together but aren't married and Ellen DeGeneres is married to a girl but doesn't have kids?

Cont.

Because I've just mostly been in my room on the internet posting about Tim Burton these past 5 years, most of which were pointless and miserable and locked up, so-to-speak.

I've had a very active life before. I'm very cultured intellectually|technically. I moved to a few places but only lived with my family in 2 states.

Uncomfortable

I wonder if I'm pretty uncomfortable around certain kinds of people... like Jay Leno. }:)

American

When did I say that in practicing the American culture that I'm not that European|real????

Oh, so, like, people with older moms can beat me up? The ones around my age.

Ellen DeGeneres

Ellen DeGeneres and a Baby - Well, no...

On the "Jay Leno Show," she was going to have a baby now, supposedly, but she looked a lot older when she was on it. I know when I hear that people like her are having a baby I get upset because I know my life will change forever.

People With Dark Skin

I noticed that it depends on your race, like they expect certain races not to be as fair. They'll really go in and attack you for it.

The Generation of My Parents

My mom is not born early in the 50s! I cannot change what I like and what I am able to do.

Changing Like People From Other Places That You Know

My face got bigger when I admired a girl who moved to Florida from L.A. I noticed an actress from England who was rather nonchalant, rather unobtrusive, you might say, had a big face, as well. She didn't look especially like overly forward like a lot of people and had a more detailed face. It's hard to describe. It seems people from England have changed with the world, obviously, duh.